*....Slinks in through the back door*

Hey...So. It's me. 😬 I feel like I have to explain to you guys my whole disappearance and why I fell off the wagon (if my last post before this one doesn't predict my downfall, then I don't know what does). But you know what? I've been working out, reading my personal development and drinking my Shakeology for a month now (the shakes for 2 months) and I feel so much better and am just ready to MOVE ON and get over it. There's no use in beating myself up because everyone slips up. And if I make myself feel guilty every time I make a mistake or go through a rough patch, it's all going to become negative and I don't need that. Plus, I already apologized and talked to the people that cared the most about my health journey and the people that I felt like I ditched and we are all back on track. It's not about the mistakes, it's about being able to pick yourself up and start over. 

My health and fitness journey (mentally and physically) is so extremely important to me. The stress and anxiety and frustration and garbage that came along when I let go of my goals was awful. And it just felt like "bad things keep happening to me! When is it ever going to get better??" And then a lightbulb went off and I realized that nobody is going to take care of me, but me. The more I let things just happen to me, the more out of control I am going to be. 

It's kind of a double-edged sword because I want to be less of a control freak and I understand that I can't control the world. Nothing turns out the way you expect and it's just stressful to put that much pressure on yourself. However, I also need to be assertive with my life and guide it in the direction that I want to go in a positive way.

So it's one step at a time: First I started my shakes again. Then the personal development books. Then the workouts. Now I'm back to running a Challenge Group so I have the support system of others to keep me accountable. And now that I feel more positive and better about myself in general, I'm able to start branching out to other goals, like getting a bike to ride every day instead of driving. And to get outdoors and go hiking or camping a few times each month. Eventually I'll be working on bigger and bigger goals that will be more long-term.

But for now, it's the baby steps that count.

**If you EVER feel like you need help getting back into a positive attitude, figuring out your life goals, or want to see how a Challenge Group can help you reach your health and fitness goals, please reach out to me! Helping others seriously benefits me, too. I'm here for you and I'm human.**